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The Power of Positive Thought

The Power of Positive Thought

This who I thought I was…

 

This is Who I am!

 

 

 

Finding out I had Congestive Heart Failure at 27

 

Back in 2007 I thought my life was finally getting started! Had a great job doing technical drawing for a company in downtown Chicago, just got my new place. It felt like all the pieces of my life were falling into place.

Unfortunately, I had only been at my new job for about two months when I felt like I was getting the flu. Deal with it, I thought. This is a new job, you can’t go calling out already.

The following morning I got insanely earlier and went to the ER. Assuming all I needed were fluids or antibiotics. As I’m waiting for the doctor to tell me, it’s the flu and I need to rest up, the Tech brought in this huge machine. I knew something was up, cause they really wouldn’t tell me what was going on.

 

I knew something was up

Finally someone said I need a chest x-ray. I still at this point didn’t think too much of it, why would I. I was 27 and in fairly good health(or so I thought). I worked out five to six times a week, I ate healthy and I was young. The rest of the day is still a bit foggy for me. My Sister worked at that hospital so I wasn’t that surprised to see she had called my Dad to come down.

When I saw my Dad I could see he had tears in his eyes, I had no idea why. See at this point I still had no idea it was anything more than the flu. Turns out the Doctors informed my Dad I had Cardiomyopathy and Congestive Heart Failure with an EF of 7-10%. They told him he should say his goodbyes because they didn’t think I would make it another hour! Information I would have liked to of known, I was 27 not 7.   

 

The Dark Times

My stay in the intensive care unit lasted about ten days. Needless to say, my life as I knew it was forever changed, I had to move back in with my Dad and I lost my job. The Doctors I saw always reminded me that I might not have much longer to live. I started to believe them. Hope was lost, I had none. I fell into a deep depression, though I’m not sure I was even aware of how down I had become. There was no living just existing. All I did was take my medicine and lay around.

 

The Snap

I had zero energy. I gained about sixty pounds in the next six months. I was a shell of the man I had previously been. Finally one day I was driving to the Doctors and I just flipped out in the car, I was screaming and cussing to no one and everyone. I even told God, quit screwing with me, If you’re gonna do it, do it! Next thing I know I pulled into that parking lot and I cried. I’m not much for crying, but couldn’t stop, I just let it all out. I can’t tell you if it was that day or the next, but something else happened.

 

The Universe stepped in

It was like a switch was turned on. I had this charge of positive energy. I told myself the Doctors are idiots. I’ll take my medicine but I can’t listen to them anymore. I just started to believe that I would be better, that I am better. Each day I woke up living my life like I wasn’t sick. I made plans for the future. Not just next week, but laid out a five year plan. I knew the focus could no longer be on the negative but on the positive. As Mother Theresa said, I will never go to your Anti-war rally but if you have a pro peace-rally I will. She understood the power of our thoughts.

 

Wrapping it all up

After that day each and every time I went to the doctor, they were dumbfounded by my healing. I still have bouts of CHF and not everyday is good, but I’m here. I’m living not just existing. I know the power of negative thought and I know the power of positive thoughts. Never underestimate the power of your own thoughts. We truly hold the answers we seek inside ourselves. What we tend to feel and think is being giving back to us. You can call it whatever you would like. Karma, the universe, God, Allah, or anything you choose. The name does not matter. Whats are the thoughts and feelings we have. So when something bad happens, accept that it happened, and move on. Being Positive will open up doors where you never imagined.

 

Please feel free to post a comment, I’d love to hear from you!

 

Thanks for reading,

 

Jim

 

Finding Westwood

 

4 Replies to “The Power of Positive Thought

  1. Hi Jim,

    My name is Jose Francisco Peña, you can call me just Francisco, is fine with me. Today I was going over my Pinterest app on my new Samsung Galaxy S8 when I saw you post. I have been very depressed and sad, I guess, unless is something more a physical condition rather than mental. I was diagnosed with a Congestive Heart failure with an Ejection Fraction of 25% or so. I went to the Emergency Room this past September 22nd with what I thought it was a Cronic Neumonia, unfortunately, the Neumonia move from been a severe condition to like a “teeth cavity.” I was officially diagnosed with a Congestive Heart failure, my life changed right there and then, I could not believe what I was hearing from the Cardiologist, I am Catholic, and I believe in GOD, my lord. But honestly, it has been very hard to accept my conditon, I am under tons of medications from diuretics to beta blockers and even potassium, I do not know what to do, it has been like a year since I got out from the hospital, I guess I am depressed, time runs very slow and I feel like I want to be alone, not even with my kids or wife, I don’t want anybody to feel pity or sorry for my condition. I am 36 years old, married and with 3 children (Two Girls- 9 and 10 years- and a Baby Boy -2 years). I feel lost, my Cardiologist told me that he will get me to the CAT Scan and Electrocardiogram and Sonogram by early next year, and see if my Ejection Fraction improved from 25% to something higher, at that point he can start giving me more options to extend my life expectancy. I don’t know what to do, please help me on getting thru this, I cannot on my own. I am lost.

    Thanks for taking the time on reading my post, God bless you always.

    Kind regards,

    Jose Francisco Peña

    1. Hi Francisco,

      I understand what you are going through all to well. First let me say, you should never accept your Condition! CHF does not define you, its just a small piece of your life. Doctors seem to focus on the gloom of it all. Let them do their job, their job is to make sure you have the correct medications and get the proper tests done. That is all. Your job is to focus on the good in your life. The first thing you must do, is to KNOW you are better, not that it would be nice to be better. I need you to have TOTAL belief in this. When you surround yourself with only positive thoughts and live your life in a positive vibration, There is nothing you cant do. When we focus on all the things that are going wrong, what do we get? More of what we give our precious energy to. Now if you were to take that energy you are wasting on the negative thoughts and feelings and harness it into the positive. The doctors are going to be at a loss for words. You have the power to change your outcome, right now! Everyday before you go to bed and before you get out of bed in the morning I want you to list everything you are grateful for. Everything, from your Wife, children, the bed you sleep in, the food you eat, the phone you used to find answers and support. Make the list and FEEL the gratitude as you go over it. Watch funny movies, do something your kids enjoy, surround yourself in a bubble of positive vibes! This will be work at first. Soon it will be second nature. We have been programmed to think we have no control over our outcomes, that’s a lie. You Sir, can determine your future by the thought and feelings you have today. God gave us all power, we just forget how to use it. So continue with your medications, but don’t focus on them. Focus on the smile you children give you, that feeling you get when you see your wife. These are the things that will cure us the most. Francisco, do me one favor, Live your Life; don’t just exist.

      I truly look forward to hearing back from in the future. My Positive Vibrations are being sent your way!

      Jim

  2. Hi Jim,
    I am in shock reading this about your life, I am overwhelmed with sadness,love,hate,confusion,happiness. …I probably sound like a fool ….But what it is ,Is my head is swirling with all these emotions. First of all I’m so happy your still with us and your not going anywhere until your old and gray…You have to much to do on this earth to help others understand the power of positive thinking. In 2007 I went back to school and received my Tech license in EKG/ Heart monitor tech In Jan 2008. Don’t really know why considering my mom passed away in 1996 of CHF ..but So much more has come to light on treatments and Living,really Living. I never made it a career, It was TMI literally….Thank you for asking me to check this out…All I Want to do right now ,Is throw my arms around you and hug you all up. Love your courage and your strength to help others through .Cant wait to meet you someday…… <3 Kat

    1. Hi Kat,
      Thank you for the kind words. I’m sorry to hear about your Mother. No worries on me growing old and gray… I’ve already got the Gray part taken care of! I look forward to meeting you as well. Jim

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